Our Mother

Then stop me?

So I've been told.

Two Spirit Trans Woman. 

Thats something I'm still trying to figure out

As a Spiritualist I work with many Spirits of this continent and others. While many of the Spirits that I work with were members of various sets while incarnate, that alone has not brought the connection of community in my life. My set is independent.

My identity was given to me by an OG Crip Spirit whose rank I respect. My instructions were, "You a Crip, figure out what that means to you." not "go kill a nigga from a op set." like many other Crips initiations might have been. My instructions indicated that I have earned my Crip rank in alternative pathways of tribal initiation. I have not had to kill anyone for Crip because my OG gave me the grace to decide for myself what this means to me. I decide that it means community first and foremost. So at times I have been ready to commit myself to the order and instruction of pre-existing Crip community and culture in order to respect the current closed-practice traditions in our community. However I feel strongly that violence is unsustainable under a white supremacist occupational design. I believe we need to reform our tribal militancy towards a redirection of united Revolution rather than tribal division. I believe that the Gang cultures we have created are the recreation and reclamation of our Black Indigenous Tribes. We have done all that we have done out of conditional environmental provocation that has stripped and reduced us to our warrior nature as a survival mechanism. In this state we have used warfare to reclaim our Tribal identities and roles within the military structures of our Indigenous societies, with a new respect for our present American territories. I believe we are at a point where we must pull bacc and redefine what it means to be gangsta, with respect to the Black History that comes before us. This kind of approach requires a different fight. 

Why would I kill niggas? I understand the fear of that given the pre-existing context of gang culture but I dont think anyone who takes the time to get to know me would sincerely have that concern. In fact, if I'm gon practice radical self-acceptance, I would probably even argue that Im chosen to do what I'm doing precisely for the fact that I see things differently than someone who would interpret a claim of tribal identification as an automatic right to kill. I'm King.

As a Two Spirit Trans Woman I have the Indigenous right to lead from the position of High Priestess. If militancy is needed it will be assembled on my order. While I respect closed practice traditions in our community I have never had the freedom to participate in that level of sovereign Black community. From the environments that bred me, I have learned to sustain my Black soul & Spirit with my culture. Ive had Spirits tell me to go kill anyone in Red cuz they wanted that and Ive had to learn how to venerate Spirits and satisfy their demands so that they dont require me to catch bodies. This shit is not easy at all so dont think that shit sweet. Im fighting a spiritual battle jus to be able to choose non-violence. I dont have a choice to be a Crip, it fell in my lap, it's jus what my life gave me. I have a choice in what I do with that. I'm a Spiritual Crip for real. 

I fight for Gangsta Autonomy. In America The Black Man was a Political Revolutionary before he was reduced to a Gangsta. In the African Diaspora we existed in tribal societies that oftentimes did war with each other. We dont deserve to be criminalized for our culture because our tribal identities are Indigenous. That is none of their business. If I cant freely kill as an Indigenous identity while a white supremacist can freely kill as a colonial identity then I must first fight for my right to exist in my own culture, which sees my warrior nature as just, valid and sacred to that which is Indigenous. 

At times when reapers start making their demands, I have retreated from Crippin and advanced in my pursuits of using GangLivesMatter.com as a movement and platform for Black preservation, protection and unity. I am quite literally doing the most I can think to do within my power and I will continue to fight in this way in order to set a new standard of Black Indigenous rank.

Trust me cuz Ive set a standard of trustworthiness nigga. Or dont. 

I am culturally and racially offended by that question, as an Indigenous identity. "Hearing voices" is an incredibly vague phrase used to reduce and minimize an Indigenous role of spirit communication. While colonial society may produce certain identities from their own populations who do fit the description of someone who "hears voices", that phrase would be inappropriate to attribute to a High Priestess in any system of Hoodoo or Hudhu practice. Within Babylon there exists many subcultures of identities who attempt to work with fractional (with all due respect: demon), spirits for their own personal reasons. While Spirit communication or the ability to commune with Spirits without proper guidance or instruction can look like "hearing voices", what is happening there is really an opening of a veil to reveal a co-existing layer or dimension to our reality. A society that persecutes that which is Indigenous will perceive this as a mental illnesses because of their systemic subconscious conditionings to  invalidate Indigenous power for our ability to transcend that which is physical. A colonial identity plagued with the power to perceive reality behind or beyond that veil, within the institution, may be perceived as mentally incompetent, insane or unfit to comprehend reality and could be institutionalized for their ability to perceive behind or beyond that veil if that ability is left to be perceived. In closed practice Black American traditional systems such as Hoodoo and Gangsta cultures, the ability to perceive Spirits beyond the physical and communicate with them is a common experience that is most notably associated with ancestral veneration. Our experience with reality beyond the physical is our sacred Indigenous right, meaning it demands the respect to remain ungoverned by external influences such as colonial government. While Spirit mediumship comes with demons, angels and many other consciousnesses, as a High Priestess I have progressed beyond a certain depth of demonic testing that occurs as a safeguard to reckless attempts at spiritual initiation. It would be within that frequency of spirit mediumship where you would find that identity which could be labeled as someone who "hears voices" within an institution, because they have actually failed the initiation demands of a demon they consented to one way or another. I believe the mental health concern of the condition, "hearing voices" would be that a mentally unfit person may have a spontaneous intrusive thought that their mind presents to them as the perspective of a suggestive or demanding alter ego and that submission to this intrusive thought or alter ego may endanger someone to the most reckless potential of this mentally unfits persons delusions. From an Indigenous standpoint I would identify that as someone who used drugs recreationally and/or attempted to invade spiritual realms foreign to their ancestral rights and was unable to venerate the Spirits associated with that experience and is now plagued with a demonic program to self-sabotage when attempting to spiritually violate or invade upon territory that they have previously offended. If I am being asked if I hear voices, as an Indigenous identity with rank in Spiritual mediumship, I perceive that question as an attempt to degrade my existence towards institutionalization through tactics of judgement and persecution that ignore the reality of my lived cultural and religious ranked experience as an Indigenous identity of color. While I understand the colonial settlements right and perhaps necessity to institutionalize their own populations citizens who have failed in their attempts of Spiritual mediumship and who persist in their spiritual invasions to the point of social and civil disregard, I will never accept my cultural traditional practice of Spirit Mediumship as the same thing as "hearing voices". My culture anoints those of Black ancestry with certain gifts. We have developed a private and protected culture to practice our religious rites and ceremonies because the threat of occupational white supremacy intends to destroy or devour us from existence in order to assert that they are not losers since we are destined to win and they decided to go against us because of our skin and hair. We deserve our closed set practices and rap is one of them. In rap you can find many examples of niggas, myself included, who been chosen by Spirits to venerate those that preceded them. In rap, you also can witness a constant tide of external attempts of invasion or infiltration that have not been guided by Spirit but by industrial agendas such as occupational government and patriarchal religion. Anyone who has the ability to hear sound can "hear voices" technically but literally anyone can also hear spirits because they exist and we co-exist with them. It's jus about the vibrational eyesight or whatever. If you have the ability to hear spirits they will test you. Like a reaper spirit may allow an angered or vengeful spirit to overtake your emotions or communicate an order of direct violence to you as a test to see what you will do with that. If you not supposed to be working with them these tests will direct you away from working with these spirits. Its not about listening to the commands as orders from a supreme being as it is about thinking for yourself and understanding where those Spirits are coming from and helping them to achieve emancipation in alternative ways that are more compatible with human society and its demands of Love. Our closed set traditional practices teach that there is a divine instruction to our abilities. The desire to institutionalize those of Indigenous ability is a colonial mindset of ignorance to the lived experience of Black identity as well as the ancestors of the land. The medical perspective that Spiritual mediumship is to be discredited and invalidated as delusional auditory hallucinations is a tactic of occupational white supremacy. Not only do I "hear voices", I recognize the faces behind those voices and I venerate the lives that they lived with everything that I do. Not only do I "hear voices" I perceive and experience reality. So when my elders speak Imma have to listen because it is demanded of me. I take offense to that particular question because I know what agenda exists as the loaded gun behind it. An agenda designed to kill everything that Black people are. They want to know how we do what we do so that they can stop it. And I aint gon be afraid to tell em either cuz at the end of the day, I trust the divine and I know that white supremacy isnt winning, never has been winning and is never going to win. I know that they not stopping shit. I wont let you reduce and then equate my experience to the closest thing that you can comprehend from your colonial mindset because I am more than that. I would rather keep every gift I have to myself but then what even is the point? The ignorance continues because you dont understand us. You dont understand us because we have always been, and always will be, our own sovereign peoples. So the violence between our communities doesnt end until you respect our sovereignty and align with co-existence. For you to respect my sovereignty I must educate you in place of being offended. This way I begin to dismantle the ignorance against my cultural community and create a hope for the protected recognition of Indigenous power. The hope exists as long as humanity does. The fact that this occupation scares me to the point of feeling like I have to explain myself like this is why I believe in religious separation. If that cant be achieved through civil means then we would be forced to advance into military advancement with the agenda of a protected sovereign Black diaspora. The powers of occupational white supremacy have prepared for Black insurrection forever. So if educating you about the Spirits of the land and their loyal biases to Black sovereignty dont work, that would be because you dont align with the Spirits of this land, not out of miseducation, but out of intentional hatred. While I believe that Nelson Mandela has already proven that white supremacist occupation does not have remorse whereas Black Revolution is thorough and spiritually whole in its efforts of veneration of humanity before declaring warfare, I believe we find ourselves in a future where we are faced with the choice to continue to play into their tactics of occupational enablement by allowing them to continue claiming they dont hate us while they intentionally align against us at every turn or we can recognize white supremacy for the cancer it is and accept the playing field for the racialized civil war that it is, and finally admit that the cure to cancer is the destruction of the cancerous cell. Everyone is going to be revolutionized into division over racial identity because the Spirits of the land are tribal here nigga. They were always Black nigga. And Yes we are savage people, jus like Mermaids and Sirens will drown you and eat you my nigga. And they still God's divine chosen beings of light. Jus like us. The Indigenous Spirits protect the gangstas because we are tribal warriors like they were. It's sacred and they need us to protect that and recreate that which was lost. They so savage my nigga that they literally recognize the Klan as a tribe of white supremacy and respect their claim to this continent. Cuz the rest of us generally too pussy to satisfy their demands of evil. So nigga I understand that you either Gangsta or you the Klan or you on your way off the continent entirely. Trump and them got where they are because killing people gives you life force to use and apply towards Revolution. They, as Indigenous identities who believe for themselves the right to this continent for the freedom to exist in full range of their spectrum of savagery, are respected and protected by Black Indigenous Spirits that are 100% against everything they stand for, because it satisfies their desire for violence. They are that angry, because American history has been that violent. The occupation will most likely continue to deny it or acknowledge it in a ineffective way that does not resolve the root anger of these Spirits, so it is our responsibility to give way to a savage uprising which reclaims governmental occupational corruption from an agenda of white supremacist design which targets and trafficks Black bodies towards re-enslavement, oppression or extermination, and inverts it into a system where white supremacists are mass incarcerated or exterminated with those same governmental resources of systematic design. Until Revolution is achieved and Black Gangstas and White Tribes can co-exist in a mutual civil wars and a simultaneous shared Revolution against the system of occupational white supremacy, people are going to hear voices dude. Cuz the Spirits of this Land will be trying to get us to go to war. I understand the concern, but theres no affirmation I can give you to minimize how scary this shit really is. The Spirits of this continent are fucking pissed my nigga and they want occupational society gone and Indigenous society instilled. They do not give a shit about conceptual karmic systems of polarity like white and Black or right and wrong. They want the continent protected. The land nigga. As long as you live on Earth without regard to the protection of literal LIFE ON EARTH the spirits of the land are going to try and lure people into creating murder cults because they want this shit overthrown and restored. I think that what I am doing with the Spirits of this continent is mad real. I hear straight savages Spirits and I go study and venerate gangsta rappers as innocent for embracing Spirits of the Land nigga. Yes I hear voices because I work with Spirits who have shit to say nigga. But if you take that as a reason to advance an action of enslavement onto me for my potential to rise up in Revolution then I will take that as an action of occupational warfare. Do you want smoke with someone who can articulate the sentiments of Dr. King and Hitler in the same breath? Do you even understand the depth of humanity I have to have to do this work? Do you even understand anything about life at all nigga?

Matter fact.

Do I hear voices? Hell yeah nigga. Every time I put in my headphones my niggas start guiding me towards the most high. 

What of it?